Wednesday, 12 January 2011

Back to work...

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Well I was delayed by a week due to a nasty bout of Bronchitis but it's finally here... 1 week before little man turns one and I'm due back to work, I've arranged three 8-hour days a week and the boys will be in Nursery for 9 hours on those days to allow for travel.

To say I'm completely mixed up about it is an understatement -
  • I want to contribute financially to our household
  • I want some time to do something that reminds me of who I used to be
  • I don't want to be reminded of my old self, I feel I've grown so far from that now
  • I don't want to be pulled in all directions and to feel I'm not carrying out any of my responsibilities to my usual standard
  • I have to be near my boys - the ache in my chest when I'm not is unbearable
  • I want to be the best wife and mother I can be - does this help me achieve it
  • I want to give work and myself a chance - it may make me a better person

Eurgh, I could go on but I shan't - one day at a time I will get through six months of work and review then - is this a fair timeframe??

3 comments:

  1. Don't be too hard on yourself honey, you will just have to give it a go and like you say after a while if it's not working then you can always make changes. 6 months is more than enough to give an indication I would say.
    Kandi x

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  2. Chloe - you are a good mother & a good wife whether you are there 24/7 or not. Not being there all the time teaches the boys independance whatever age. If working helps you to stay sane then do it - if after a trial it doesnt make you happy then give it up. Love you all. Suzi x

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  3. Thank you - today was hard and very wrenching but in very British fashion, I've gritted my teeth and was welcomed at the Nursery door with two beaming smiles and lots of cuddles right up to bedtime!

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